Baby, This love I have

I hope my future children never have to know the burden of being embarrassed. I’m like 95% sure that’s impossible, but in a perfect world, they’d move through life standing firmly in their decisions. I haven’t always been someone who’s done that.

There was a period of my life where I was genuinely afraid to tell people I made music. Even though I knew my music was really good, I was always worried about what people would think. There’s a real vulnerability in trying. In showmanship. In putting effort into something people can judge. Everyone has an opinion. Everyone has an idea of what you should do and how you should go about reaching your goals. Truthfully, a lot of those people don’t even have the wherewithal to chase their own dreams, so it’s easier to comment on yours.

The first line of Minnie Riperton’s Baby This Love I Have is an accurate depiction of what my relationship with music looked like.  “The things I say and do may not come clear through” is slick and sultry in the context of an unknowing lover. That line is slightly embarrassing when I think about caring too much about the thoughts of someone who could really give a damn about me. When I signed my first deal, I got a little bit more comfortable talking about it. That was because I had an entity to legitimize what I was doing. If only I could go back and tell myself that I’ve been legit since the day Portrait came out. (Sidebar: google industry rule #4080)

I know for a fact I’m really really good at what I do. Better than most actually. But if I’m being honest, I could do a much better job of acting like the last two statements are true. Cause they are. I’ve always been a  “let the music speak for itself” kinda guy. I’m still gonna do that, you’ll just hear from me a little more. See yall on March 6th :)